Thursday, 22 April 2010

Who am I at my best?

This is an exercise for the course which I meant to do a few days ago. For various reasons I am feeling incredibly negative and down at the moment so I know doing this exercise isn't just important for the course, its important for me

When was I at my best? What do I feel proud of as I look back over what I have done both in work and out of it.

Organising the production section at Dudley Road
My time on the Liver Unit especially starting the self medication system.
Setting up the topping up system at QE
Becoming one of the top DM's in Europe in my RPGA days
The way my relationship with my son has stayed strong as he has matured
Beating depression and getting control over my life.
Dealing with individual patients and their problems
Doing my best for Edna
Being a shoulder to cry on for friends/colleagues with problems

So who am I at my best?

Innovative
Well organised
Focused
Caring
Good communicator
Good listener
Hard working
Reliable

Sunday, 18 April 2010

Improving what I do

I have now read all the course book, know what TMA2 and the ECA are about and am wondering if I have gone dreadfully wrong somewhere. I feel I have missed so much of what I am meant to have learned. I almost feel as if I need to start all over again.

I have been assuming I would find it all easy to understand. And I ave. But I now realise I haven't been reflecting and thinking enough. And that is why I am missing things.

So I need to go through allte exerises again - and this time reflect on them. I havent really engaged my brain on this yet.

I am just glad I have time to improve all this.

Saturday, 17 April 2010

Activity 37 6 statements of advice

Brain thinking relationships and social identity

Know yourself so you you are doing what you really want - not what others want you to do

Meditate regularly

Use positive thinking when talking to yourself.

Develop good relationships w

Make sure you have a good work/life balance

Follow commonsense rules for diet and exercise to ensure you are physically healthy

Kenny's story

Reading this was quite painful because having been through depression myself I could identify with Kenny so well.

So here goes to apply a psychologists understanding and look at the interanl and external factors

His desire not to go to work was a symptom of how stressed he had become. The stress had caused in inbalance of serotonin in his brain, and it was this that made him not want to go to work. This would not ave happened overnight. It had probably built up over weeks or months. It is possible there had been more subtle signs before that he ignored.

It is interesting he says he wanted to escape.

The medication helped to restore the serotin levels in his brain and get him on a more even keel, but still didnt solve the main problem which was that Kenny was profoundly unhappy with a large aspect of his life. He didn't have a job he was happy doing. The loss of self esteem this would cause would be contributing to keeping him stuck in a very bad place - not wanting to go out and socialise. And this would in turn keep his serotonin levels off balance and the whole thing becomes a vicious circle.


His recovery was undoubtedly helped by the serotin levels being gradually corrected (by medication, counselling and positive thinking. His eureka moment of thinking ' You've got to do something' would not have happened unless the internal factors had corrected so he was able to take the opportunity that came along that day. Without the correction of the internal factor the external factor would not have helped.

The desire to be a breadwinner again is an internal factor. trhere is no sign that there was any external pressure about this. But it was an important enoug role for him to help him re-balance the internal factors so he COULD actually work again.

Just as you spiral down into depression, you have to gradually spiral out of it with each positive step giving positive feedback that makes the next step a bit easier to take.

I can relate to this so much - it is almost painful to read and think about this. But it also shows me how far I have come since my dark days.

Activity 20 Personal ads

Cameron et al did some research on personal ads in 1977, This research concluded that women promote themselves in terms of physical and personality traits while men promoted themselves in more materialistic ways such as homeowner or professional i.e implying they would be good providers. Each was they believed the other was looking for.

The activity was to look at 20 personal ads for each sex and see if you agree with Cameron's findings.

Both sexes tended to use physical attributes, personality attributes and an indication of interests in their ads. So from that point of view I do not agree with Cameron. But both are still advertising themselves in terms of what they believe the other want, but the expectations about what the other wants have changed.


Society has changed a lot in 30 years, and the gender stereotypes have radically altered. So what people want from relationships have changed. Some specify they want a long term relationship. Others just seem to want fun.

Also roles within a relationship are different. Men are no longer expected to be the bread winners and house husbands are becoming more common. Most people expect to share the roles within a relationship.

The two sexes are now much closer together in terms of roles. Women can be professional and men can do housework. Some of the mens ads actually specified they would do housework and used the word 'romantic' The presumption is that women like this in a man. But that presumes the women are still stuck in the old stereotyping. So maybe society hasn't changed as much as I think it has?

I view this from the perspective of a professional woman, in a relationship where my partner is a househusband. My observations are coloured by my perspective. There are still a lot of 'traditional' relationships and people out there. And their perspective on this would be different to mine.

So what have I learned from this?

The date of research is important. When looking at child development 30 year old research can still be very relevant. How children develop wont change much. Society however is continually evolving and it is that factor that makes Cameron's results appear wrong .

This shows how careful you have to be about sources in assessing their relevance to what you are doing.

It is interesting that if Cameron's work was repeated today it wuld have to encompass dating sites and internet personal ads. Interestingly one of the problems with the internet is its lack of personal contact and the ability to pretend to be something or someone you are not. It is interesting that in this digital age, ads in old fashioned media are still used. Maybe people trust papers more?

I thought this would be an easy task - and assumed I knew the result. While it was easy (once I had found some ads!) the results were surprising.

Monday, 12 April 2010

Reflection on Chapter four

This chapter is all about relating to people. This is something I have had problems with.

The first part about how early relationships effect development got me thinking about my relationship with my son and how I had brought him up. In fact my son often came to mind as I compared his development /relationships at the key stages mentioned in the chapter.

The section on adult relationships was very interesting and I found myself looking at my previous failed adult relationships and my current very successful relationship in a new light.

Happiness is something I have focused on a lot since doing CYLI7D. I believe firmly that happiness is a choice we make and not a state to be aimed for.

Recognising evidence is something I have to do as a pharmacist. To evaluate and recognise what is good or bad evidence is a key part of information mastery. It isn't something I do very well - I couldn't be a medicines information pharmacist - but for the purposes of this course, this isnt a problem for me.

Monday, 5 April 2010

TMA01

I have finished and submitted TMA01 - days before the deadline. I have given it my best shot. All I can do now is wait for comments from my tutor. I know when I do something once even of I do it wrong I do it much better second time.

I have also finished skim reading the course booklet. I feel I understand most of what the course is about - but I need to re-read it slowly and do all the exercises properly to make sure.

My tutor will ring me tomorrow. That should be an interesting conversation.